Journal entry #6

The last 6 weeks of TAFE have been busy with work on assignments taking up my time. In Monday’s class we have started working on feature stories with Pam with was leaving me a little bit daunted . I have a lot more creative control over what I could write but have been worried about how to structure the article. I eventually managed to put something together but wasn’t totally happy with it and felt it was rushed. That said I have learned a lot in regards to my writing skills and have benefited a lot from the 1 to 1 teaching that Pam has given me.

The editing for the 360 video was a bit more of a stressful experience as I had to do all of the editing by myself. The positive side of this was growing in my video editing skills and the end product was something I thought was quite good.

The rest of my classes were pretty simple and I had forward planned assignments to ensure that they were all completed prior to the due dates.

Hard to think that the Diploma is over. I thought I would struggle with it a lot more then I did and had this thought that it would be bigger and tougher than the Certificate IV. I feel proud of myself and feel confident I can go on to bigger and better things!

Journal Entry #5

The holidays have finally hit TAFE which gives me a bit of time to catch my breath and work on some assignments.
The last two weeks I have been a little bit lazy with my contribution towards work and have let a few of the assignments mount up.
That said, I have at least put up a list of subjects and when my assignments are due, just haven’t been proactive enough!

I have bought a video editing program, on my laptop and have been fiddling around with that to improve both my video and audio editing skills.

In class we have been taught quoting by Pam and the importance of getting that correct. I have written a lot of articles over the last two years and only recently realised that I have been quoting all wrong! Pam was very thorough with her lessons and ensured that we all knew how to do it correctly.

Looking forward to after the holidays where we will be venturing out to Central station to film a 360 degree video. i have no experience with 360 videos so should be interesting!

Journal Entry #4

The last couple of weeks has traveled along very quickly! With only 16 weeks in the whole course to think we are half way through has given me a bit of a fright.
Overall I have been feeling pretty nervous and anxious about everything as the pressure gradually builds. A lot of that anxiety has to do with what I will be doing after this course but some of it is also attributed to completing assignments such as writing articles.

The work in class has been pretty good over the last fortnight, the teaching apart from our editing class has been quite good and have enjoyed the freedom in most classes of being able to work on assignments.
Media project has been one of these subjects I have learnt from, by the research and stories I have written. Over the last couple of weeks I have been placing together my stories on the spirit of cricket where I interviewed Geoff Lawson a former international cricketer, and a story on the growth of veganism in Australia.

Still feeling overwhelmed by the audio and video editing aspects of the course and hasn’t been taught these much at all. Hopefully this changes soon but have started to do some of my own editing work in the hope of learning the ropes.

27 and single. Is there something wrong with me?

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One of the best things about my TAFE degree is the three-day week which enables me to have Thursdays and Fridays off! Now, normally I relax to my heart’s content on these days off which normally consists of a diet of old wrestling footage, fruit and the occasional chocolate bar (who are we kidding, its more than one chocolate bar).

However yesterday I finally made use of my free Thursday and took a solo trip to the movies at Cronulla. I saw a movie called “a Dog’s Purpose”, I’m a dog lover and thought this would be a great chance to unwind after a slightly stressful week. The premise of the movie is that the soul of a dog travels round to different dogs in pursuit of keeping or making people happy.
Much like any movie that hits the big screens, there was an element of romance in it and that’s when my feelings of being alone resurfaced.
I’m 27 and single, how did I get here? Is there something wrong with me? What if I end up alone for the rest of my life?

These thoughts are dangerous territory to get into, you start to wallow in self pity and the negativity can almost single handedly knock you off your feet.
I have struggled with being a single guy for a large part of my teenage and adult life. I don’t know where it really stems from as I have always had a few close friends (I’ve never been Mr popular and never will be) and have two amazing parents who have always had my back and supported me through everything in my life.

As I’m writing down these words, I think the lack of attention during from girls has probably been the catalyst. That in itself is probably my fault as I am quite a picky person when it comes to a potentially partner (hey, I wanna marry the next girl I date so it’s a pretty big decision!). The other issue that has held me back has been my unrivaled fear of the opposite sex. Don’t get me wrong, I have friends that are girls and once I have established a relationship with a girl I feel a hell of a lot more comfortable.
Making that first step is hard for me though, I believe that one of the hardest things in the world is approaching a girl you don’t know. My mates are always encouraging me to do it when we go out for a few drinks, even after a few ciders (I can hear the negativity surrounding my drink of choice already) I still can’t do it. I break out in a nervous sweats, my intestines feel like they have vacated my body and my legs go so numb that you would think I’m going sky diving at 20,000 feat not trying to approach a girl at the Newtown Hotel.

As I’ve never really experienced a proper relationship I feel like I am missing out. Almost all my friends are all married or at least in relationships that I feel left out and think that there is something wrong with me.
There are nights when you long for the company of someone, even if it’s just to accompany you to the shops or having someone to ride with to a party, the loneliness can get suffocating at times.

However looking at this broadly I know that there is nothing wrong with me. We aren’t defined by if we are married or single even if that’s what Hollywood wants us to believe.
If a girl comes into my life then I will be stoked beyond all measure, but for the time being I know that my identity is as a Christian and with Jesus as the head piece.
Does that mean I am going to be happy all the time whilst being a single guy? No, but it does mean I know my standing as a man and I am cool with it.

For those reading that do struggle with singleness like I do, find comfort in the joys of life and the amazing person that you are! If people aren’t noticing you then there is something wrong with them not you. I think you’re great (that doesn’t really carry much weight though…).

My parting words are: don’t worry! Be happy!

Journal entry #3

The last few weeks of Tafe have been interesting to say the least. I have learnt a lot from our Monday morning class with teacher Pam Walker. Pam has taught us a lot about the inverted pyramid way of writing to ensure that the most newsworthy bits are up the top.
We have also been learning about quotation marks and where to implement them in a story.

Unfortunately one of the other subjects I was very excited about has been a big let down.
Video story telling was supposed to have an element of video editing and it was what I was relying on heavily to gain some valuable skills. We haven’t attempted any editing nor been taught any which has been very disappointing. Hopefully it improves in the near future.

The rest of the course has been going pretty well and I have been satisfied with it. It has also been great getting to know the other students and build rapport with them.